Monday, 24 September 2007

Happy Birthday Gorgeous!

Cant believe C is 19. Where have all those years gone? I don’t feel old enough to have a 19 year old!!

Its very hard to know what to give autistic children for their birthday, unless they have a passion or an obsession with something and C has neither. So as I make rugs, I have made a couple for him. One for his room at school and one for home. They make great protective wall coverings for head bangers!

In these last 19 years C has taught me so much and I hope through this blog we are giving people a better understanding and tolerance of autism. I certainly have had a lovely response from people here and I thank you all.

I miss him so much and especially on his birthday. He doesn’t have a concept of birthday so I haven’t gone to visit him as he would be too confused (he would think I am there to take him home) and obviously I don’t want to upset him. I will speak to him later on the phone hopefully!Here is a poem I wrote some years ago, but it still stands.

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Casdok, that has made me feel very emotional. A truly beautiful poem of which a part of C will understand one day. I do feel for you not having him there today and the fact that he will not become confused should you visit simply choked me.

Your blog is truly lovely and a great insight in how any mother feels, not just one of an autistic child, your situation is just more intenseremember today the joy you felt 19 years ago when you had a son - so special

Hello Casdok. This is the first time I have caught your blog and I have to say I think I've been missing something a bit special; it is beautiful, thought-provoking and honest. I am learning so much about so many things from this wonderful site and will be thinking of you on this special day. xx

You're so right about autistic birthdays! My autistic brother (he's 20 now) has been on a Godzilla kick since he was about 9, so I usually send him Godzilla toys or movies if I can find them. It was helpful when he got stuck on that, so I knew what to get him!

I know C doesn't get the concept of "Happy Birthday" but you do, and you were just as much of a part of his birth as he was, so to you I say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!I can only imagine how bitter sweet this day is for you, so I hope you take some time out to do something kind for yourself today.Hope C likes his rug :-)

Oh, it's hard, but you sound like you are doing this with such grace. Some days are easier than others for me. D is just figuring out what birthdays mean and some social significance of holidays. I still struggle with not getting the full, warm hug that I'd love from my son, but we're working towards that. Blessings to you, and your precious boy. (And no, darling, you do not look old enough to have a 19 year old!)

wow, thanks for stopping by my blog. I have to admit that I was wowed when I came to your blog and found out you have a 19 year old! I was also taken a bit a back when seeing the word autism. My son Crofton has Autism too. This poem hit home. thatnk you for sharing that with people.cher ;)

I'm not very good at remembering birthdays either. I kind of shoot for the month, because, if I wait until the day, it's gone, flown from my grasp like a little bird.Sad day for Mum, though. C is a lucky, lucky lad to have you in his life.